Fall from Grace

Beat, dammit. Beat... As if empowered by the surgeon's silent command, the lifeless heart resumed a steady rhythm, again taking its place among the living,cheating death.Only then did Dr. Jack Morgan allow himself to relax. At this point during surgery, adrenaline normally coursed through Jack's veins, creating a high that kept him running on all cylinders despite a career that might kill a lesser man.Tonight, he was to-the-bone weary.Too tired for someone still not quite fifty. His limbs felt oddly heavy, weighted with fatigue. But organ donors were few and far between, and failing hearts didn't give a rat's ass about his schedule, holidays or his exhaustion. After stepping back from the table, he addressed the third-year resident at his side."You can close, Murray." "Yes, sir." Her expression reflected gratitude and the same thrill Jack had experienced during his tenure as a student years earlier.That thrill that had been waning for some time now. While Murray completed the procedure, Jack surveyed the O.R., absorbing the atmosphere he'd so often taken for granted. This was his domain, among friends and colleagues and those patients who needed his skill. The culmination of all his sacrifice, all his blood, sweat and tears. His efforts, though, had not come without a price. No one waited for him at home. No one had for a while.And for some unknown reason, that bothered him more tonight than at any time in his recent past. Not one to question moods, Jack gave Murray his verbal approval, along with the standard orders for the recovery process.Then he thanked the team members for a job well done, wished them a happy and prosperous 2007, tossed his gloves and gown into the refuse bin and headed out the double doors to tell the family the father of four now had a new heart and a sound future, barring complications and a lapse into an unhealthy lifestyle. For a brief moment he thought about the motorcycle-accident victim, a twenty-year-old kid who hadn't lived to see the arrival of the new year. But he didn't dwell on that. His sanity demanded he remain detached. After rounding the corner, Jack stopped at the nurses' station,where Peg Jennings sat with her half-glasses perched on the end of her nose as she scanned a chart. He sought refuge at the counter and leaned his full frame against the cold Formica ledge, flexing the tingling fingers of his right hand in and out of a fist."Where're the Graysons?" "On the roof.Where else?" Peg was a Dallas Regional Medical Center fixture,with twenty years' tenure and a wit as dry as West Texas. Jack liked her a lot. She wasn't inclined to cower and she sure as hell wasn't impressed with his status.She did have a propensity for sarcasm, though. He didn't need that right now, considering the bongo drum pounding in his head. His annoyance came out in a rough sigh."What conference room, Peg?" "The main one." She set the chart aside and steepled her fingers beneath her chin, studying him with concern. "Dr. Morgan, you look like hell.Are you okay?" "Sure."Since he'd had less than six hours'sleep the past two nights, not to mention he hadn't finished lunch or breakfast, he was as okay as could be expected. He needed a solid surface to sleep on, a couple of analgesics, a quick shower--after he met with the family. As he turned from the station, a searing pain struck the left side of his skull. He clamped his hands over the sides of his head and fought the shadowy abyss that stretched out before him. Fought like a drowning man not to go under. His knees buckled. A feeling of total helplessness screamed through his brain at breakneck speed.Numbness overtook the right side of his body like frostbite in subzero temperatures. He grabbed for the counter, but couldn't hold on. God, no! Annie appeared in his hazy mind, an ethereal presence from a dark place this side ofGold, Kristi is the author of 'Fall from Grace ', published 2007 under ISBN 9780373654048 and ISBN 0373654049.