Black Wings and Blind Angels: Poems - Sapphire - Hardcover - 1 ED

Breaking Karma #5 i It is like a scene in a play. His bald spot shines upward between dark tufts of hair. We are sitting in a pool of light on the plastic covered couch, Ernestine, his last live-in, ended up with. But that is the end. We are sitting in the beginning of our lives now looking at our father upright in his black reclining chair. It's four of us then, children, new to Los Angeles--drugs, sex, Watts burning, Aretha, Michael Jackson, the murder of King, haven't happened yet. He is explaining how things will be-- Which one will cook, which one will clean. "Your mama," he announces, "is not coming." Two thousand miles away in the yellow linoleum light of her kitchen, my mother is sitting in the easy tan-colored man's lap. Kissing him. Her perfect legs golden like whiskey, his white shirt rolled up arms that surround her like the smell of cake baking. "Forget about her," my father's voice drops like a curtain, "she doesn't want you. She never did." ii Holding the photograph by its serrated edges, staring, I know the dark grey of her lips is "Jubilee Red" her face brown silk. I start with the slick corner of the photograph, put it in my mouth like it's pizza or something. I close my eyes, chew, swallow. "Breaking Karma #6" I'm in the movies now playing the part of the girl who broke my heart. My mouth, strobe-light pink, bounces off blue sequins. Behind me the Stones sing "Miss You," hollering, "There's some Puerto Rican girls around the corner just dying to meet chu." In the wings a white boy in a wheelchair moans, "Oh operator please get straight." SHE takes the stage now. Big yella gal. Daddy was a wop. Mama was a nigger. She's a singer. With a voice hot semi-liquid rock. Her heels are hills, cobalt blue melting like her dress into the firm breasts, fat hips & belly of Black Los Angeles. "Let's burn down the corn field," SHE wails. It's 1968. Tito, Michael, Randy & Cato are dancing down rows of rainbow colored corn when a voice comes over the loud speaker: There will be no ambulances tonight. "We'll make love, we'll make love while it burns," SHE screams like Howlin' Wolf, like Jay Hawkins, like Hank Williams, like Van Gogh's windmill, like the severed ear of black wind in a plate of pigtails & pink beans, like that bridge in Connecticut that collapsed under the center of air shaking like change in a cup. SHE stands like the big legs of a nuclear plant cracked at the base melting down a room full of $3/hr assembly line workers who hear her & shout, "Honey Hush!" & the crack in their mother's back becomes a sidewalk, then a road leading to a peach tree in "Georgy" or a pear tree in Florida. I'm eating popcorn & watching a Mexican dump a drunk paraplegic BORN ON THE FOURTH OF JULY in the desert his granddad rolled over a century ago killing for gold. At the side of the road an Okie girl, selling peanuts & semiprecious gems, hands me three pieces of black obsidian, called "Apache Tears," the Okie girl drawls, "'cause after the cavalry massacred their men, the Native women cried so hard their tears turned black, then to stone." Inside the theater the screen fills up with a fat half breed burning, gasoline in a blue dress. SHE picks up a microphone & in a book she hasn't read yet a white boy in a rented room puts his eyes out with lye. "I rather!" SHE shouts. "Tell it!" the audience shouts back. "Umm hmm," like the wind trapped in a slave castle SHE moans, "I rather go blind," the screen melts white drips down her faceSapphire is the author of 'Black Wings and Blind Angels: Poems - Sapphire - Hardcover - 1 ED' with ISBN 9780679446309 and ISBN 0679446303.