Outtakes from a Marriage

[one] Joseph Ferraro." The two words rose above the restaurant din from one of the tables behind me, rose up and out of the dull white drone of late-night chatter and the chink of fork upon china and the distant half-drowned tracks of a forgotten Hindi-jazz CD. Had they been any other two words, they might have become part of the ambient clamor that surrounds each table at Pastis like a protective garment, allowing its occupants to speak of love or desire or deals or just to leisurely gossip, as Karen Metzger and I had been doing for the past five minutes. It was Wednesday night at Pastis, we were celebrating Joe's Golden Globe nomination with the Metzgers, and the guys had gone outside for a smoke. "This is amazing, Julia, you have to try it," Karen said. She was hacking away at a mound of hard hazelnut ice cream. "Here. Try it," she said, tapping the plate with the tip of her spoon. Then she carved out one more little bite for herself. "I just saw him, he's standing outside smoking. Right outside the door." It was the same man's voice behind me, eager and disbelieving. "I know. We saw that guy, but we don't think it's him. He looks too small." This was a girl. A tipsy girl. And young, that was clear. She divided the word small into two syllables and then dropped the second syllable an octave, just the way my daughter, Ruby, and her friends did when they spoke to one another. "Everybody looks smaller in real life," said the guy. "Ever seen Tom Cruise? Guy's a dwarf. Ever seen Al Pacino, Sean Penn? Pygmies!" I shot Karen a look of startled amusement but she hadn't heard him. She was shaving tawny ice-cream crescents onto her spoon and reexamining, in a tone that was rising with shrill indignation, the "perfect storm" that had swept her husband Brian's just-released film to the bottom of the box-office charts, where it clung, battered by reviewers, looking for a dignified and timely route to next season's DVD releases. "The studio was out to lunch on this one," Karen said. "And Sophie Wilkes just can't act. A director can only do so much." "I don't know, I think she's all right," I said. "Everybody liked her in that movie about the teacher. Didn't she win the Oscar?" "That was a fluke. She's awful. Why aren't you eating this?" Karen pushed the ice-cream plate to my side of the table and then she stared at it, wistfully. "Go ahead," I said. "I like it when it's a little melted." I slid the plate back to her. "Can I use your phone?" My phone was in my purse, dead. Karen took one last swipe at the ice cream and then she plunged her arm up to her elbow into the oversized Balenciaga tote that hung from the back of her chair. She probed the depths of that three-thousand-dollar handbag, biting her lip and staring straight ahead, and I was reminded of a young English veterinarian I had recently seen on a television show, struggling to extract an unborn calf from the womb of its desperate mother. "I can use Joe's phone when he comes back," I offered. Karen frowned for a moment, thrusting her arm slightly deeper, and I could see the bulge of her knuckles as they rolled along the supple leather walls of the bag. There was the muffled tumbling of keys and coins and then she extracted the phone triumphantly. "And I told Brian not to cast John Gregory Mason. He's just too gay. Nobody believes him when he plays a romantic lead.&aLeary, Ann is the author of 'Outtakes from a Marriage', published 2008 under ISBN 9780307405876 and ISBN 0307405877.